yeah.
comments have been made.

so like how a friend asked me this question.

why are you a catholic?
and why are you not a whore?

but it doesn't matter now.

and i admit, that i'm a mental nympho.
because i think about sex.
like, most of the time.
and if you see me zoning out, i do think about sex.
and i have an imaginary friend.
and his name is Hayden.
i talk to my two bolsters.
one is my husband and the other is my boyfriend.
so?
you dont think about sex?
you dont talk to yourself?
you never had an imaginary friend in your life?
dont say never.
what about the time you played pretend?
i bet you just think about sex all the time and not say a single thing about it.
future rapists in the making.
cause you have too much pent up sexual frustrations needed to be let out.
she's an exceptional expressionist.
she lets it out and brings us joy.
so you all who condemn.
go ahead.

i'm not a whore because i dont sleep with every guy i know.
i'm catholic because i believe in God.
and i believe in karma.
which has been duly received.

i had loads to say earlier on.
and i really wanted to do a long entry.
but it seems that all's going out if the window.

i've made my mistakes.
and i know my faults.

but i'm not going to beg, simply because if i do and if you forgive me then.
you wouldn't be ready when you forgive.

people can say what kind of a friend i am.
go ahead.
it isn't the first time anyway.
i have friends who vouch for me.

he said: "so have you learnt your lesson now?"
indeed i have.

the holiday's that are coming soon are sure to help.

p.s.
you think i dont know who you are.
but you have no fucking place to make your comment.
you have to be a joke to think that i dont now who you are.
people are always opinionated.
i know that personally.
but you're making it oh so fucking obvious that its you.
you're in no place to make comments because you yourself are one.


i can do this.
i know i can.

pasti said that i'm a strong girl.
and i know i am.

i have to go for a wake tomorrow.
something that i'd rather escape than to face.
thats saying something considering that i want to escape many things right now.

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling